HWK Past -> Present

Camille Chen

St Hilda's School

Southport  QLD 4215

To My Younger Self,

I bet you're infront of a computer right now xD. Try not to stay in front of it for too long. I know there's nothing else to do and you would be bored but try doing something else like reading even though you hate it. It will help in the future. Don't hate or think of tutor as a waste of time or as a chore, think of it as an opportunity to hone your skills and learn. By the way, watch out for that huge desk where the piano is when you end up playing with your brother. Try not to be too hard on people and smile more~~~~ haha put some more emotions on your face please. Another thing to know is that, how others may end up is none of your business, just take care of yourself and everything else will follow for themselves. Don't poke your nose into unnecessary things, just continue your own path, as to whether this path will be followed by others... just dont think about it. Oh and go cause some trouble at school while you still can. What is the point of a school life with no excitement ? Don't fear and run forward and try not to procrastinate.

Cheers,
Your Elder Self.

Looking up at mum, she looks scary. I don't really like mum, I prefer dad. I tend to go to dad more than mum. I talk to him about stuff and I try to avoid talking to mum. We always end up in an argument. Sometimes, I think she hates me. She's so strict when it comes to how we act when we go out to have meals with her friends as a family and our studies too. I hate it when I have tutors, mum's always bugging me about studies. I feel like I've been chained and caged. The only thing that lets me out of this place is school but I don't really socialise much at school, I'm always with Vicky. I guess the only other thing that I love the most would be playing those online games, takes me away from everything just like entering another world. I always wonder why I'm even here. I mean, what's the point.

Now, I still continue to wonder about the point in being in this world but as I look down upon my mum and see the strands of grey hair beginning to show. I understand that she loves me and I thank her for all her actions during my childhood, making me who I am today. Despite what I had thought at the time. Sometimes I regret why mum didn't continue to press forward in getting me to continue learning violin and piano or for me to try harder. I sometimes regret that I chose to not continue or did not practice harder but then again having this regret would not change anything. I prefer talking to mum now, I sometimes more or less hate seeing dad. I have grown closer to mum these past years and after a few events I see mum in a different light. She is actually very weak hearted inside. She needs a lot of care and is very dependant on others in many ways. I simply wonder how much our relationship will change in the future. Other than that, I guess it is important to just live in the moment and have as much fun while you still can. I have a wider variety of friends now and get out of the house more often too. You can say that my world has grew bigger and with it comes even more problems, worries, joy and happiness.